A business man recently asked me this question as I was all teary eyed sharing stories about the kids we are helping in Africa. “How can someone like you who is so practical and matter of fact be on the other hand so mystical and emotional when it comes to what you do in Africa?
I responded by saying that as I touch, feel and see these suffering children and caretakers, I cannot help but feel God’s heart breaking for them and be tenderized by God through being involved in their lives. It is very humbling to be apart of a miracle and answered prayer for these kids. We regularly are making life and death decisions for these children and are constantly needing God to guide us and direct us in all of this. God has touched me in ways that I could not have imagined possible. I feel the presence of God in my life so strong as I do the work and share the stories. It is often difficult to even put this experience into words.
As I was recently reading a devotional by Oswald Chambers, he so adequately described what I was trying to put into words regarding this experience. He is describing this touch by Jesus.
Has Jesus ever looked at you? The look of Jesus transforms and transfixes. Where you are “soft” with God is where the Lord has looked at you.
If you are hard and vindictive, insistent on your own ways, certain that others are in the wrong than you are, it is an indication that there are whole traits of your nature that have never been transformed by His Gaze.
So I can say, this truly summarizes what has happened to me. I have been transformed by God’s Gaze as I am reaching out to these suffering and abandoned little ones. I feel like, I have got a glimpse of Christ through them.
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